my name is green

Wondering

2011-12-25T03:09:00.000-08:00

I have not many concerns but
This question makes my head burst
which among the two is worse
lack of what you need and want, or
a deadening lack of thirst.

Careful

2011-11-23T03:13:00.000-08:00

You will not fall in love
if you are concerned
more about falling
than about
loving.

Fame..

2011-11-19T04:29:00.000-08:00

.. brings terrible loneliness.

Dignity

2011-05-29T18:31:00.000-07:00

...
Because I don't hate you
I love myself more.

Must be Lived

2011-05-03T22:47:00.000-07:00

It was a beautiful morning with the sun just risen
And the cool grass beneath us

There were a lot of people greeting the morning.

I started telling her about the new invigorating philosophy I had come across and was applying, expanding it on my own...

She did not listen and started talking about something else

I looked at the sun

It’s ok if someone is not hearing it
What matters is that I am living it.

A Brief Biography of an Author

2011-04-30T00:34:00.000-07:00

He has no children.

But the fire in him
coming out as ink

Has impregnated many minds.

Stained

2011-04-11T21:34:00.000-07:00

I remember the night when
under the moon's caring light
we kissed.

And I thought I had left my mark on you.

I wish I knew my fault.
my prides, my vanities, painful all.

For you have moved, and you have gained, but
by your memories

I am stained.

Unbearable

2011-03-03T13:49:00.000-08:00

Telling the truth,
and being satisfied with it
makes you unbearable.

Trade-off

2011-02-17T05:42:00.000-08:00

I can be perfect
but then, I cannot be myself.

The first rule of relationships

2011-01-28T12:31:00.001-08:00

Do not try.

Education

2010-12-12T05:27:00.000-08:00

What good is your education if you know not
what to say
to a friend in pain?

You are free

2010-10-03T15:02:00.000-07:00

Everything
I tried to keep for me

Just for me

I saw it destroyed or taken away
So you don't have to worry if I say
I love you

I will never hold you, if I do.

The thing about art

2010-10-02T11:24:00.000-07:00

telling much,
using few.

Adjust

2010-09-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

If you adjust to a problem, you won't solve it.

Sudra

2010-08-11T21:54:00.000-07:00

Like the learned Brahman,
Holy texts I cannot read.

Like the brave Kshatriya,
Strong armies I cannot lead.

Nor like the Vaisya
who calculates with such speed.

A Sudra I am,
and I am happy,
to bring you water when you need.

Struggling

2010-07-29T11:02:00.000-07:00

You try hard to fit in
into places you are shown
instead of looking what's right for you
and finding on your own.

Identity Crisis

2010-07-04T20:16:00.000-07:00

I changed a lot of me
to be
someone liked by you

But now that you are not there to judge me
I wonder
what to do.

Adamant

2010-06-23T09:06:00.000-07:00

He refused to believe there were problems he could not solve.
So he went ahead and complicated it.

Learning

2010-06-10T10:26:00.000-07:00

They stood up when they were asked, the national anthem was about to be played.
It was an old recording filling the big room.
Some of them stood stiffly, and also sang along, carefully.

They were taught this at school.

Alone

2010-05-30T02:35:00.000-07:00

Does it happen to you
When you are alone in a crowd
There is someone you see
and you are afraid (and hope)
its me?

It happens to me.

And I don't know if I miss you
or I just miss
someone to talk to.

Challenge

2010-05-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

Why do you tell me your theories, your ideas, your philosophies?
Doesn't it occur to you they mean nothing to me?

Why these structured ways and lines of thought?
I am not a company.

Why these scientific, logical arguments?
I am not a machine.

I can feel.

The only way you might change me is by listening to me and telling me honestly and simply how you feel.

Can you?

Dreams?

2010-05-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

I went after worldly ambitions
and forgot my dreams,
(today I have no dreams)
Because I was seeking the approval of those
close to me.

Afraid

2010-05-08T22:06:00.001-07:00

I don't want to come into your private space
because I am afraid
I will be asked to leave.

Complexity...

2010-05-08T22:06:00.000-07:00

..arrives when the simple is suppressed.

Pliable / Unbending

2010-03-28T13:00:00.001-07:00

I will agree to whatever you want me to agree
for I have no philosophy
because I am free.

Addiction

2010-03-17T08:28:00.000-07:00

Talking to you is
in a sense
indulgence.

Uncomfortable

2010-03-16T12:48:00.001-07:00

If there is the will you might succeed
even if you lack the capabilities.

But you couldn't do it even when you had the goods
Maybe it was because you didn't want to.

Drive

2010-03-14T23:09:00.001-07:00

Your need to help is driven by a sense of guilt
Isn't it?

Power Tactic

2010-03-04T18:51:00.000-08:00

If its friendship, why is s/he making you feel guilty?

Mistaken

2010-03-01T01:05:00.000-08:00

So you think you know
everything will go.

The only way..

2010-02-18T21:50:00.000-08:00

There is no winner in a war.
When someone hits you you hit them back.
Then they hit back.

And it will go on, until one is gone.
But both will lose.

The only way to defeat is by patience goodness and positivity.
But that needs tremendous belief.

The Leader

2010-02-08T12:05:00.000-08:00

I know
I know that you will go your way
You know your way.

And if I help, it will be my glory
If I don’t you won’t be sorry
You know your way.

You are a leader.

Another

2010-01-23T06:13:00.001-08:00

When you hate yourself for making a mistake,
you make another.

Leper

2010-01-12T22:44:00.000-08:00

And a person in the saffron robe was praising the woman who wore white clothes.
She could hug lepers.
She could do it because she saw Jesus Christ in each leper and believed she was hugging Christ.

Maybe the leper, by himself, was not worth a hug.

Underneath

2010-01-08T13:20:00.000-08:00

Behind all that money, big names, big words, contacts those shiny offices and big cars and the perks.. I know.. I know you yearn for love.

I have always known it.

The ending of argument

2010-01-04T04:50:00.000-08:00

I don't want to attack your opinions
I don't want to defend my beliefs

I just want you to listen to me.

Be like me...

2010-01-01T11:32:00.000-08:00

.. is what everyone seems to say
one way or the other.

Impractical

2010-01-01T10:54:00.001-08:00

In an effort to be practical
He ended up fake and dull.

Rituals

2009-12-19T11:22:00.000-08:00

When I was younger the rituals bored and confused me.
Why were somethings done? What was true?
Did anyone know?

Then I reached the conclusion that they were there to chain you and they don't mean anything. The thoughtlessness of people has made them continue.

Then it occurred that the ritual makers were really intelligent. For maybe they saw the shallowness of us and made these illusions so that we can act happy or sad as the occasion demands. Sometimes maybe illusions are the only support we have.

Cage

2009-12-19T11:16:00.000-08:00

An honest, ethical, hardworking man, he has a good image.
A beautiful cage.

Spate

2009-12-09T02:48:00.000-08:00

One

You struggle so much in life you make so many rules
You achieve so much in life but you still end up a fool.

Two

He is respected people heed him
but he feels empty when his friends need him.

Three

Because he is horrified at the emptiness inside
He works hard and hard, a systematic suicide.

Substitute

2009-11-23T11:17:00.000-08:00

Many people around and the material necessities
its true.
But friend tell me if someone else can be
a substitute
for you.

Goddesses

2009-11-07T11:06:00.000-08:00

He is a family man in the lower income group with teaching as a job and 3 young sons.
I got to see the pictures in his cellphone.
There were pictures of colleagues.
Pictures of Hindu Goddesses.
And pictures of semi-clothed Bollywood actresses.

Typical.

Impossible

2009-11-07T02:08:00.001-08:00

You cannot help someone if you are afraid to hurt them.

Distance

2009-10-11T11:10:00.001-07:00

It may be better, it may be worse
the distance may be in minutes or meters
forward or backward, past or future

but reality is never what it looks from a distance.

Image

2009-09-30T05:16:00.000-07:00

Do you hate the person - or do you hate the image?

Awed

2009-09-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

He.. he inspires me.. he.. he disturbs me.. he is so.. so..
himself !

Missed Chance - a very short story

2009-09-25T11:04:00.001-07:00

She wanted to tell him something. When the right time would come.
He waited. Then he was gone.
One day, he came back - for a day.
She was gone. For good.

But he got an idea of what she had wanted to say. Yes, there was a problem.
And he could have done nothing.
Would it have mattered had she said it?

We only know the chance was missed.

Now, what will you do?

2009-09-15T22:06:00.000-07:00

No, no there is no such thing as a physical desire. What you want is to dominate his mind and possess him and that is what you call desire and this desire is what you are suppressing and that is what is creating the problems in the relationship and if you can see this fact then maybe you will also see that doing it will not change a thing.

It was a nice evening but..

2009-09-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

.. he did not like the moment, so he compared it to others, which he considered lesser, to make him feel good.

Powerless

2009-09-13T10:41:00.001-07:00

All power is useless.. except the power to heal.

Ideals

2009-09-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

The urge to idealize..
.. rooted in self - hate.

Wastage

2009-09-04T23:18:00.001-07:00

Tremendous energy is wasted,
in being someone else.

Volcano

2009-08-30T23:36:00.000-07:00

He arranges all the files into proper folders.
Shuts down the system.
Clears the desk.
Checks his schedule for the next day.

Today's targets - almost completed. Rest can be covered tomorrow.
He is in control.

Slides into the bed peacefully.
But five minutes into sleep, the subconscious erupts.

Strange

2009-08-28T01:52:00.000-07:00

While I am sitting trying to objectively evaluate a presentation some people are giving about some industry they are saving I suddenly hear a voice - her voice, the tone I've not heard in years. And all she says is my name.

Strange.

Mother and Son

2009-08-21T01:15:00.000-07:00

he does not listen to whatever I say I feel he cuts with his logic his words and knowledge which are so clear he is so intelligent

but I cant say everything with words
he does not understand.

you are right ma, but I am beginning to...

Social Work

2009-08-09T19:57:00.000-07:00

Last night, there was a girl outside my hostel room.
Just outside the next to next room.

She was smoking cigarettes one after the another.

Today morning, I saw the place littered with stubs.
She was here for an event concerning social work.

The sound doesnt matter..

2009-08-04T13:33:00.000-07:00

.. if you sing from the heart.

What are you running from?

2009-08-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

When you find the urge
to read a book
to talk to a friend
or any other escape you can

Stop running
simply sit and
just do it.

Aggression

2009-07-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

He wants to be strong and strong
For he feels weak and weak
He isnt a bad person
Its just a survival technique.

Happiness

2009-07-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

.. if you can't find it in little things
you can't find it.

Take a break

2009-07-26T11:45:00.001-07:00

Some times to get close..
you need to get away.

What I believe

2009-07-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

I dont believe in so many things
concepts of ethics or morals
or the idea of a country.

But I believe in the air that I breathe
the food that I eat
and that if I do no harm (or good)
no harm should come to me.

Friend, Lover

2009-06-27T23:35:00.000-07:00

Yes I am attached, lustful
But what am I to do ?
That too is a part of me which wants to become
A part of you.

Truth

2009-06-24T21:48:00.000-07:00

Truth is not something to be searched for, or found.
It is the glaringly obvious from which we run away all the time.

Theory and explanations ..

2009-06-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

.. in your arms I can close my eyes and rest
away from ugly facts.

Observations

2009-06-12T10:12:00.000-07:00

Desire creates thought.

Like and dislike are essentially the same - equally harmful.

Getting help prevents me from making mistakes,
not making mistakes prevents me from learning.

Nirvana Defined

2009-06-10T10:12:00.000-07:00

No dear Kanika, I am not in love,
Love is in me.
So I can always give it but I never have to ask for it.

So what if

2009-06-08T10:25:00.002-07:00

A collection of two very short stories

Story 1 - The Night

9.30 pm.
A beautiful resort.
The drummer in a scuffle with the band members.
The band member's greedy eyes following the notes in hands of the dancers.
The child carrying a lamp on his head - crying.

Bolo ta ra ra ra

Story 2 - The Prince

A few thousand years ago (it is believed),
There was a prince. He wife was abducted by a king. The prince went after him, killed him and got the enemy's kingdom burnt in the process. Then on a stranger's accusation, he left the same wife.

Today,
many have been killed in his Divine name.

Yeh duniya agar mil bhi jaaye to kya hai.
(So what if one may get this world.)

Mystery

2009-06-08T10:25:00.001-07:00

Why is it that a sunset is never boring?

The Dreamer

2009-06-08T00:24:00.000-07:00

The real world frightened him so.
he clung to ideals.

Money.. irony

2009-06-04T20:49:00.000-07:00

The more you have, the more you want
the more you want, the less you have

The secret is in putting your best effort
to have as little as possible.

Help

2009-06-03T10:54:00.000-07:00

Do we help out of care, or in the hope that
when we need
someone will be there?

Bondage

2009-06-03T10:47:00.000-07:00

Come dear friend,
In you I see my desires fulfilled
Let me give you affection.
And with addiction to my caring words,

Let me destroy you.

Side-Effect

2009-05-31T12:21:00.000-07:00

They liked his ways, and all that praise
made him happy...

and very uncomfortable.

Painful

2009-05-28T19:43:00.000-07:00

I always believed in arms open wide
But now I feel like keeping them steady by my side

Its painful to see so much can be done
But you cant really help any one.

Treasure Haunt

2009-05-28T19:38:00.000-07:00

I am rich
I have collected so much treasure
With the sweat of my brow
Now I await someone to share it with
No one, I am alone

I am poor.

The Winner

2009-05-25T21:13:00.000-07:00

the black car
the big business
the pretty wife

so much money yet
poverty drips from his face
meet the winner
of the rat race.

The real problem about the rat race is that it never ends.

Those Two Days...

2009-05-25T21:06:00.000-07:00

They were beautiful
I was aware of everything around

I was not bored
I was not tired

and when there was desire
came the question - why?

and it was done only if the answer was -
Because I Care.

Entreaty

2009-05-24T12:30:00.001-07:00

Oh I do not understand
secret desires false or true

it is but a simple want
to want to be
with you.

The best help ...

2009-05-22T23:21:00.000-07:00

.. comes not from what people do,
but from what they are.

Rarity

2009-05-18T12:23:00.000-07:00

There are so many best people around, some in this, some in that, and so many are simply the best.

But its always a refreshing experience to meet a good person.

True Love

2009-05-18T10:45:00.000-07:00

There are infatuations, school crushes,
college romances,
but its at the office where one finds one's true love...

Work.

Be Aware

2009-05-18T10:43:00.001-07:00

Be aware my friend,
if you're lost in the means
you might get lost
in the end.

A different 'ambition'

2009-05-11T10:10:00.000-07:00

There are days in my life
when I smile and sing
and see different things
and solve some problems
come home tired
looking forward to a good rest
and the thought - this day turned out well.

I want to be in the same mood
on my last day.

Dear Artist

2009-05-07T06:46:00.000-07:00

You can draw a tree
And nice scenery
But can you draw
an emotion
for me?

The 1.x second Programme in Management

2009-05-02T12:59:00.000-07:00

What is the most important quality of a manager?
Care.

The meaning of forgiveness

2009-05-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

"I forgive" - a statement of ego.
"Sorry" - a weapon for violent lovers
or a tool for desperate greed.

For you can't consciously exonerate anyone
but when one is understood,
one is forgiven.

Times change

2009-04-14T18:05:00.000-07:00

A few years back she called me
and told me
She is going to kill the beautiful thing we had
I said no, no, no.. and even though
One alone can't keep a relationship alive
I kept pumping all I had, trying to resuscitate it.

So it weakly existed .. sick though alive
Very sick and diseased, with tears and pain

And now she called me again
Said we could talk anytime
But I am used to this existence
I have nothing to talk about.

Post Script

All these years, I was the one blamed,
Well I have lived with what I did,
and now she must do the same.

Nothing succeeds like success.

Reason..

2009-03-27T09:41:00.001-07:00

.. the favourite attire,
of desire.

Is it love?

2009-03-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

All he felt was pleasure in her company, her smile, her face..
.. he thought it was love.

Planet of the Apes

2009-03-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

I just dont understand why you are wasting so much money on this research just look out at the crowd dont you think we are already perfect in the art of cloning?

Brand of preference

2009-03-20T09:10:00.001-07:00

The rain descends
Exploding mud's scent

I am intoxicated.

Importance

2009-03-14T08:57:00.000-07:00

Do memory or intelligence
make up
for a lack of sense?

Novelty

2009-03-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

The poor man is excited by the car.
The suburban lass finds the village charming.

Everything is so beautiful in itself,
but its novelty which attracts us.

Killer Smile

2009-03-02T18:56:00.000-08:00

Her smile kills me.
She smiles when she describes how she is beaten.

Some people work hard...

2009-03-02T18:55:00.000-08:00

.. so that they can rest.

Glory

2009-02-10T06:56:00.000-08:00

Being a solider is glorious.
But if there are no soldiers..
.. will there be wars?

Invulnerable

2009-02-03T10:05:00.001-08:00

I have donned my golden armour, no one can hurt me
.. and no one can hug me.

Harmless Flirting

2009-02-02T07:38:00.000-08:00

First you look so good
Then complain I stare.

How unfair.